Finally my 1 week long vacation in Turkey is in motion, already more than 6 days have passed.
This time around I started it in Istanbul where there was a wedding party of a close relative. The day after I met my childhood friend Alper who is now a chest surgent. whole day we travelled and in the evening we met with a girl who was my platonic love of my love for about 5 years.
It was refreshing and satisfying not to be too excited around her for a change 
. Yet towards the end of the day I found her attractive again, but no teenager style magic of old days.
I liked the fact that it was just liking someone you meet and eventually I asked her if she’d like to escape the city for 2 days in countryside with me before I go back to the Netherlands. As usual I received a “no I really can’t” in summary.
What a dissapointment :/ but at least I do not let it grow in me again…those voices echoing inside my brain “what if?”.
Strange enough she called me later the following day to persuade me in going somewhere she had friends that I would have good time with. No thx, that was not what I had in mind when I called you me lady
Odds are against me on this one but hey life is too beautiful to let pessimistic thoughts grip you to death…so I don’t care much about the odds nor negative responses. I only wish this time I had the chance to see how it would really be with her, which is part of the problem. I never had the chance…time to let go for the 2nd time which is why I’m writing it down here.
Now I have less than a day to make my decision whether I should go somewhere on my own or stay here in Ankara before departure.
All in all I’m having a great time this week for real here and I’m glad that I did it!Above all Istanbul charmed me again with its beauty.
